Hmm... I don't even know how to describe how I've been feeling lately...
A little pointless....
A little uninspired....
I'm beginning to think there's no method to the madness...
Maybe there's no right or wrong decision. No matter what you seem to trade something off.
And when it all comes around, the problem is with me anyway.
Sure, I'm being vague, but I must say, it's making me feel a little better, even if it only makes sense to me.
So what if a lot of things are my fault. There are a lot of things that aren't my fault too.
I'm still not sure if wounds heal... time doesn't seem to do anything but make things worse...
I start to wonder if maybe time to think is a bad thing... I always thought it was good until I had something to think about...
When there are so many paths, how can anyone know where they are going?
Or does everyone have a map but me?
When I hit a dead end, how much time do I waste backtracking?
The only thing backtracking does is make me know the dead end like the back of my hand but still keeps me in the dark about the right path.
I just need to know that there is a right path.... somewhere...
From what I've seen people die and never find the right path.
Is it even possible?
I know where I want to go but I don't know how to get there...
I don't know if I should believe that it does exist...
If everything I do is so wrong...
How do I become right?

-Arielle

There are things that people should never do, but they do anyway.

There are things that people shouldn't have to say, but they still have to.

The world is a hell of a place.

I feel like I hate everything right now. And the worst part is...

It's completely my fault. It's all my fault.

I really don't think there is any way to make this right.

-Arielle

So no job anymore.
Don't really care. It's not so bad. I guess I can always look elsewhere.
Thanks a lot, Sears.
Have an idea for my future. And I think I'm gonna run with it.
Unfortunately, I'm doing just about as much as I can right now on that.
But I'm getting there.
Spend a lot of my time thinking lately.
Maybe for the better?
I'll be optimistic and say yes.

-Arielle

L-O-V-E

What is it really, anyways?

Life will forever remain a mystery to me......

-Arielle

New semester, semi-new job, semi-new living arrangements....

It is indeed a whole new year.

This year, I'm really gonna work on myself.

I'm gonna work harder at everything in my life. I'm only three semesters away from getting my degree. After that, I can start living my life. All the plans that I have won't have to be on hold anymore. I'm gonna get a place this year. I'm also gonna try to not be so hard on myself. I really think that when it comes to a lot of things in my life, I am my own worst enemy.

These are my plans.

Happy late new year.

-Arielle